I am so happy to be a part of the offical Out of Line series Fan week! I absolutely ADORE this series and everything about Finn and Carrie's story. If you haven't read this series I highly recommend that you do!
"Desperate to break free…
I've spent my entire life under my father’s thumb, but now I'm finally free to make my own choices. When my roommate dragged me to my first college party, I met Finn Coram and my life turned inside out. He knows how to break the rules and is everything I never knew I wanted. A Marine by day and surfer by night, he pushes me away even as our attraction brings us closer. Now I am finally free to do whatever I want. I know what I want. I choose Finn.
Trying to play by the rules...
I always follow orders. My job, my life, depends on it. I thought this job would be easy, all the rules were made crystal clear, but when I met Carrie Wallington, everything got muddy. She's a rule I know I shouldn't break, but damn if I don’t inch closer to the breaking point each time I see her. I’m ready to step out of line. And even worse? I’m living a lie. They say the truth will set you free, but in my case…
The truth will cost me everything."
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"Desperate to keep him...
I've finally gotten everything I ever wanted: love, freedom, happiness, and, most importantly, Finn. Our love is everything I expected it to be and more. We've finally found each other, but the world seems determined to tear us apart. We thought my father was the only obstacle between us, but now it's the military. With Finn’s departure looming, we’re squeezing in every moment together before we run out of time.
Trying to make every moment count…
Being Carrie’s bodyguard was one thing. Being her boyfriend is another. Every day she’s mine is a day the sun shines in my life. Yet our time together is running out. Her father will never think a tattooed Marine will be good enough, so I’ll do whatever it takes to be worthy of her love. But the road will take me away from the girl who makes me feel alive--the girl I can't live without.
Time only gets us so far..."
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Deleted Scene from Out Of Time: Part One of Three
This was the original ending to Out of Time, before I decided to change it from a novella to a full length novel. Once I made the book longer, a bunch of stuff changed, including the way/place/time that Finn told Carrie he would be leaving. As did the reasons why. Enjoy! --Jen
That’s what I was right now. What I’d been ever since Finn told me he might be leaving. Even more so now that I knew the time for the truth grew rapidly closer. It was Sunday evening at five-forty five and I was a hysterical wreck. And I’d been that way all weekend long, especially once my parents were gone.
In a way, I’d been grateful they were here like they’d been. It had been a welcome distraction. But then they went home yesterday, and I was all alone. Last night and today had passed the slowest any day had ever been. I’d gone to the soup kitchen with Darren. Handed out tons of gift cards. Done my homework. Worked on my thesis. Washed my new car. Done research. Cleaned the apartment, which had been an adventure all in itself. Gotten ahead in class, even.
And I’d still had hours and hours to sit around twiddling my thumbs, slowly going insane as I waited for six o’clock to come around. In a matter of minutes, Finn would be here on this beach with me. And knowing he was going to tell me whether or not he was going to freaking war…yeah.
Manic. That pretty accurately described my state of mind.
Despite the “unhappy” circumstances behind this picnic, I’d tried to set a romantic scene, complete with a red and white checkered blanket, a wicker basket, and a pilfered bottle of wine from Finn’s cabinet. There was also a bunch of grapes and strawberries, and a couple of sandwiches for us both.
I’d spent the night at his place last night, putting my clothes away and just being there. I slept in his bed, hugging his pillow, and had laid awake almost all night long. I tugged my navy blue and white sweater down and fidgeted with the hem of my jean shorts. I’d left my hair down for Finn, since he liked it that way, but now I was wishing I’d taken the time to do something with it. If I’d done my hair, it would have taken me even longer to get here, and I wouldn’t be sitting here fidgeting and wondering and stressing.
As Finn would say…this fucking wait was fucking killing me.
But no matter what he said, no matter what happened, I was standing by him. I wouldn’t leave him, and I wouldn’t move on and forget about him. Hopefully he didn’t really think I would. Long ago—at least, it seemed long ago—he’d told me if he went to war I would forget all about him. God, if he really thought that…
I’d have to do my best to show him he was wrong.
The hair on the back of my neck stood up and I got that tingling sensation that warned me I was being watched. I remembered having the same type of feeling the first night I met Finn, when he’d been guarding me and watching from the shadows.
Who would have known that he would have come to mean so much to me in so little time? That I’d need him so badly I couldn’t imagine a life without him in it. Who would have known the man who was sent to watch me would want me, too?
I rolled clumsily to my bare feet, my heart racing and seeming to painfully climb up from my chest until it felt as if it rested in my throat instead of my chest. I knew that wasn’t possible, of course, but I’d swear to it anyway. He walked toward me steadily, his light blue jeans folded up at the ankle to keep them clean. He wore a grey hoodie and a pair of sunglasses. I couldn’t read his freaking eyes. Had no clue what to expect.
But suddenly it didn’t matter anymore, because he was here.
And that’s all that really mattered, wasn’t it?
I took a step toward him, then another. By the time my foot hit the sand a third time, I was running. I’m talking, hair flying behind you, full on sprint. Finn picked up the pace, too, his long steps growing even faster. By the time we met, I was out of breath and fighting back the tears threatening to escape.
Even though he hadn’t opened his mouth, I just knew what he was going to say.
He caught me in his arms, spinning me in a giant circle and hugging me to his chest. I could feel his heart thumping, beating against my own almost in tandem. He opened his mouth to talk, but I kissed him before he could. I didn’t want to hear it. Didn’t want my worst fears to become so utterly, horrifically, devastatingly alive.
When I was a little girl, I’d been terrified of monsters that hid under my bed. Now, as an adult, I knew the real terror lie in words and actions and in life or death. Not in scary, hairy, huge beasts.
I kissed him with a desperation I hadn’t felt before, knowing if I stopped he’d tell me the words I didn’t want to hear. Knowing if I stopped, I’d utterly lose it. There was a good handful of people on the beach, and they were probably all watching us with wide eyes, but I didn’t even care. All those silly fears I’d had over the years seemed so freaking pathetic in the face of this.
He moaned into my mouth and stumbled back, his hands supporting me. I knew I was attacking the poor man, but I couldn’t stop. Not now. Not ever. From a distance, I heard the waves crashing on the sand and a few voices carrying off from the distance, but I shut it all out. All I wanted to focus on was Finn.
When he broke the kiss off, his breathing heavy and his grip on me unbreakable, I dared a glance up at him. Even with his shades on, I could see the tension in the way he smiled. And the way his shoulders were tight and hard. “Hey, Ginger,” he said lightly.
I forced a smile for him, my hands gripping his shoulders so hard it probably hurt him, but he didn’t so much as flinch. “Hey, yourself.”
“I like this kind of greeting.” He swung me into his arms, cradling me against his chest. “But now I’m not going to put you down.”
“I don’t want you to,” I said, my voice breaking on the last word. When he shot me a concerned look and opened his mouth to talk, I pressed my fingers against his mouth. “No. Don’t say it. Not yet.”
He kissed my fingers and nodded, but he looked away from me. Probably trying to hide his own tortured feelings from me, to protect me, but it didn’t work. I could feel his pain as if it was my own—and he could probably feel mine. “Okay. What’s for dinner?”
“Wine. Lots of wine.”
He laughed, but it sounded forced. Of course it did. “Let me get this straight. You want me to publicly provide a minor with wine? Seriously?”
“Seriously.” He set me down on my feet next to the picnic blanket, and I buried my toes in the cool sand. Funny how that used to feel like such a thrill to me. How naïve I’d been. “I want this to be the perfect date. And once it’s over…then we talk. Deal?”
“Have I ever denied you something you wanted?” He sat down and patted the spot directly next to him. “If that’s what you want, you’ll get it.”
I wanted to demand he not leave me. Wanted to demand he not go to war.
He’d promised to give me everything I wanted, hadn’t he?
But that wouldn’t be fair. Even I knew he didn’t have a say in whether he left or stayed. It was all up to men like my father. To the men in the government who sat behind desks and demanded that men like Finn go overseas to fight for oil and other crap they tried to put a pretty face on.
“I want you, here with me.” I grabbed a grape and pressed it to his lips. “And I have that now.”
He took the grape out of my fingers, licking them as he sucked it in. Something in my stomach tightened, despite the emotional turmoil I was in, and I leaned closer, watching his mouth hungrily as he chewed. It wasn’t until I looked away that I noticed he still wore his dog tags. I gently grasped the chain and pulled them out from under his shirt.
I scanned the words that denoted his name, social security number, blood type, and religion. Guess I now knew he was O positive. Weird way to find out, though. I didn’t even what the heck type of blood I had, but I knew his. And knowing that this was how they kept track of who was who felt so cold and impersonal.
But then again…that’s how life was, wasn’t it?
"Reaching for sunlight...Finn survived the ambush and came home to me, but in his head, the battle is still raging. He’s falling apart and I’m trying my best to pick up the pieces of him, to find the us we used to be. I love him as much as I ever did, but love isn’t enough to fix this. I thought telling my father about our relationship would be the hardest thing we’d ever have to face. I was wrong.Lost in shadows...All I wanted was to be worthy of Carrie. One mission, just one, and I’d be able to give her the future she deserved. Then everything went wrong, leaving me tainted and broken. Carrie wants me to be who I was, but all that’s left is what they made of me. I’m no good for her. No good for anyone like this. I have to figure out how to move forward. Alone.Sometimes love isn’t enough…"
Watch out tomorrow for my review of Out of Mind!!
Jen McLaughlin is a New York Times and USA Today bestselling author. She writes steamy New Adult books for the young and young at heart. Her first release, Out of Line, came out September 2013. She also writes bestselling Contemporary Romance under the pen name Diane Alberts.Since receiving her first contract offer under the pen name Diane Alberts, she has yet to stop writing. She is represented by Louise Fury at The Bent Agency.
Though she lives in the mountains, she really wishes she was surrounded by a hot, sunny beach with crystal clear water. She lives in Northeast Pennsylvania with her four kids, a husband, a schnauzer mutt, a cat, and a Senegal parrot. In the rare moments when she’s not writing, she can usually be found hunched over one knitting project or another. Her goal is to write so many well-crafted romance books that even a non-romance reader will know her name.
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I really hope you will try this series! It is absolutely amazing and I'm really sad that it is over. Don't forget Out of Mind comes out April 29, 2014!